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Tonight my roommate asked me if I wanted to go to this local huge mall with his friends. Everyone was going there at 12AM. That whole black friday thanksgiving day shopping stuff. Intuitively I thought to myself, no, I don't want to go. I'd rather relax and go online or what not. But then I over-rided my intuition (never again) and decided to go. I am not the type of person who likes things like that. Never had been, but thought hey...maybe I have changed. Plus I wanted to spend time with my n… Continue

I notice that the more I join a group. Either a group of co-workers. A group of friends. A group of people of sorts... The more I'm around other people... the more its like, its not about my own energy.. I find to "join in" with other people, you have to really let your energy join theirs. You can't hold onto your own energy as much. But thats the power of it right? I feel for whatever reason, maybe from such super-individualism of always studying and being alone in that way... that I had fo… Continue

I got a bag of raw cacao beans recently. Nativas brand! Anyways, finally got a bag of whole beans, as I just personally find the entire bean really is amazing more than the nibs. Maybe its the synergy of the actually cacao skin on the outside? I was waiting to eat the beans out of the bag. I wanted to approach it from an intuitive position. Like, when do I really just want some? Well a week went by. Finally at work 2 nights ago it actually sounded good. The taste was appealing to me. I proceede… Continue

I've realized lately that there are different ways of living and being in this world. One thing I realized was that I tend to be very introverted, super-individual... And I'm not sure why. Maybe its because our culture sorta encourages this from birth... or maybe its my personality? The way I was raised?? I feel like I'm living sooooo far from a tribal social existence. I wonder what it would be like, as an experiment.... to stop all things I do that I do alone...(which is a lot of things!!!)… Continue