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Something I really hate myself for is how much money i spent on my prom dresses in high school. i had this stupid belief that i had to look amazing at these dances and have the prettiest dress there. Looking back I just want to shake myself! My junior prom I actually bought two dresses since I was going to two dances. SO stupid. it would have made so much more sense just to wear one twice. what i really hate was the one I HAD to have, that looked like a wedding dress, was over 200 bucks. i just… Continue

I read about her on a forum and watched some of her youtube videos. The one that was recommended "It's you that's keeping yo ufat" or something like that, was really good. She addresses those chronic dieters that continually "fall off the wagon" and binge, and must restart. (ME). She says whether it's 15 (ME) or 100 pounds extra that you need to lose, you have to take accountability for your own actions and NOT EAT those trigger foods, because they will lead to a binge. I think this is so import… Continue

today i spend way too much money at whole foods. i think i probably got more food than i needed to, but it was so nice to be able to have stuff to work with tonight!! this morning i had my frozen nana/cinnamon combo but then i started eating granola with it. then at lunch i had salsa and chips followed by frozen yogurt. gross. but then i went to whole foods and bought a ton of stuff. i had a larabar in the afternoon, and also a strawberry/vanilla/banana/cinnamon pudding. sooo good. then i am so… Continue

I've been looking at pictures from the past two or three years tonight. Looking at my body, my skin, the joy. this was me eating the way i used to eat- whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted. I was thin, my skin was clear, i looked great. now i'm twenty pounds heavier, breaking out, so insecure, and a binge eater. what happened? in high school, i had a boyfriend named josh for a long time. i realize now that josh started going out with me right after my braces were off, i looked pretty great at… Continue