warning- this blog specifically names a lot of cooked/junk "food".... dont want to side-track anyone :)
JUST WANT TO NAME THE FOODS I HAVE LEFT TO EAT BEFORE GOING ON MY FAST (SPIRULINNA+WHEAT GRASS JUICE). IT'S SILLY, BUT EVERY TIME I SAY THIS IS IT ( STARTING RAW OR FASTING) I WILL GIVE MY SISTER SOME OF THE FOODS I HAVE IN THE KITCHEN, THEN WHEN I FAIL I'M LIKE DARN I GAVE SO-AND- SO AWAY!! LOL SO THIS TIME I AM KIND OF TORN, SOME THINGS MY SISTER WON'T TAKE BECAUSE SHE IS CHANGING HER DIET AS WELL, MY ONLY OPTION WOULD BE TO THROW IT AWAY AND I FEEL GUILTY AS HECK THROWING FOOD AWAY- NO MATTER HOW NON-NUTRITIOUS IT IS...I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO WITH THESE ITEMS YET, THIS SITE HAS REALLY GOT ME AMPED TO GET STARTED. MAYBE I'LL JUST KEEP THEM IN THE FRIDGE AS DECORATION???
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I HAVE THE FOLLOWING LEFT:
1 PACK OF HADDOCK
1 1/2 BAG OF DORITOS
2 2-LITERS OF DIET DR.PEPPER
2 SLICES OF TURKEY BOLOGNA
2 PACKS OF AMERICAN CHEESE
1 SLEEVE OF WHITE BREAD
6 ICE CREAM BARS
AND JUST AS A NOTE TO SELF: I PRETTY MUCH FEEL UN ENERGETIC. LIKE IM WASTING TIME SPENDING YET ANOTHER DAY IN UNHEALTHY BODY "HELL" , BLOATED AND LAZY, ANXIOUS, UNAFFECTED, AND UGLY. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS RAW, I SLEPT DEEPLY WITH MINIMAL HOURS, I WAS NOT AT ALL GROGGY WHEN I WOKE UP, I FELT INSPIRED, LIKE I WAS ACCOMPLISHING RATHER THAN THINKING ABOUT IT AND PLANNING IT. I FELT LIKE SHARING AND LETTING PEOPLE IN, I FELT THE DESIRE TO REACH OUT, I WAS HAPPY WATCHING THE LBS MELT AWAY, I FELT DISCIPLINED AND FREE, AND I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT FOOD AS MUCH AS I DO ON COOKED/JUNK.
THE LAST TIME I WAS SUCCESSFUL AT FASTING, I MADE IT 9 DAYS AND I FELT SO DURN ENERGETIC TOWARD THE END, THIS HOUSE WAS SPOTLESS!!! I WAS ALSO MORE SENSITIVE TO EMOTION- IT FELT MORE LIKE AN ENTITY THAN A FEELING.
I DON'T LOOK FORWARD TO THE BURNING PANGS IN MY STOMACH, THE DETOX HEAD ACHE, FEELING DISGRUNTLED, FIGHTING URGES, THINKING ABOUT FOOD EVERY OTHER SECOND, THE FEELING OF WAITING FOREVER TO MARK OFF "DAY 1"AND THINKING IF I CAN JUST MAKE IT TO DAY 4 + , FEELING OUT -OF- SORTS ...
YET I HAVE TO ENDURE IT THE REWARDS ARE GREAT ONCE YOU PROVE YOU REALLY WANT THEM.I MUST REMEMBER ENDURANCE IS THE KEY! THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I CAN DO IF I ONLY HAD TO MAINTAIN IT FOR ONE DAY, BUT THIS ISN'T A ONE DAY FIX. ITS DAY ONE +1,+1,+1...... AD INFINITUM. IT HELPS ME TO THINK THAT THIS BATTLE ISN'T LIMITED TO FOOD, IT'S MY SOUL'S BATTLE- A FIGHT FOR TRUE DISCIPLINE, FREEDOM, EVOLUTION, DECLARATION, A SHOW OF STRENGTH, AN ABILITY TO TRUST,..
TALK IS CHEAP
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I HAVE THE FOLLOWING LEFT:
1 PACK OF HADDOCK
1 1/2 BAG OF DORITOS
2 2-LITERS OF DIET DR.PEPPER
2 SLICES OF TURKEY BOLOGNA
2 PACKS OF AMERICAN CHEESE
1 SLEEVE OF WHITE BREAD
6 ICE CREAM BARS
AND JUST AS A NOTE TO SELF: I PRETTY MUCH FEEL UN ENERGETIC. LIKE IM WASTING TIME SPENDING YET ANOTHER DAY IN UNHEALTHY BODY "HELL" , BLOATED AND LAZY, ANXIOUS, UNAFFECTED, AND UGLY. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS RAW, I SLEPT DEEPLY WITH MINIMAL HOURS, I WAS NOT AT ALL GROGGY WHEN I WOKE UP, I FELT INSPIRED, LIKE I WAS ACCOMPLISHING RATHER THAN THINKING ABOUT IT AND PLANNING IT. I FELT LIKE SHARING AND LETTING PEOPLE IN, I FELT THE DESIRE TO REACH OUT, I WAS HAPPY WATCHING THE LBS MELT AWAY, I FELT DISCIPLINED AND FREE, AND I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT FOOD AS MUCH AS I DO ON COOKED/JUNK.
THE LAST TIME I WAS SUCCESSFUL AT FASTING, I MADE IT 9 DAYS AND I FELT SO DURN ENERGETIC TOWARD THE END, THIS HOUSE WAS SPOTLESS!!! I WAS ALSO MORE SENSITIVE TO EMOTION- IT FELT MORE LIKE AN ENTITY THAN A FEELING.
I DON'T LOOK FORWARD TO THE BURNING PANGS IN MY STOMACH, THE DETOX HEAD ACHE, FEELING DISGRUNTLED, FIGHTING URGES, THINKING ABOUT FOOD EVERY OTHER SECOND, THE FEELING OF WAITING FOREVER TO MARK OFF "DAY 1"AND THINKING IF I CAN JUST MAKE IT TO DAY 4 + , FEELING OUT -OF- SORTS ...
YET I HAVE TO ENDURE IT THE REWARDS ARE GREAT ONCE YOU PROVE YOU REALLY WANT THEM.I MUST REMEMBER ENDURANCE IS THE KEY! THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I CAN DO IF I ONLY HAD TO MAINTAIN IT FOR ONE DAY, BUT THIS ISN'T A ONE DAY FIX. ITS DAY ONE +1,+1,+1...... AD INFINITUM. IT HELPS ME TO THINK THAT THIS BATTLE ISN'T LIMITED TO FOOD, IT'S MY SOUL'S BATTLE- A FIGHT FOR TRUE DISCIPLINE, FREEDOM, EVOLUTION, DECLARATION, A SHOW OF STRENGTH, AN ABILITY TO TRUST,..
TALK IS CHEAP
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Comment by Blackmajik Womban on March 30, 2009 at 7:25pm - yeah very tru. Even though my binge from last nite carried over into the early hours of this am, I got my butt up and walked and exercised (a big deal for me cos I resist change) I was also raw so far today, so I'm learning this- to stop thinking of things only in extremes, I'm going to go with the flo but by all means. go. Thank u Bettina!! :)
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Comment by Bettina on March 30, 2009 at 7:16pm - You should change your mindset to...I'm doing the best I can....so even when you screw up...that's the best you could do at that moment....now move on! Eating a steamed veggie isn't gonna kill you!!! Doritos might!! Remind yourself....its a slow process sostop pushing yourself to go 100% in day 1.....YOU NEED TIME!
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Comment by Ali on March 30, 2009 at 7:11pm - just remember that 'tomorrow' and 'someday' are not days of the week. If you keep saying "oh yeah ill start tomorrow" then the chances are that you'll keep putting it off. Also, remember that you don't have to go 100% raw overnight.. you will still see benefits if you ease yourself into the raw lifestyle.
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Comment by Jay on March 30, 2009 at 1:18pm -
sheesh, I was actually considering eating some b.s. today. Falafel to be exact, but as soon as I come on this damn site, I'm reminded that some of the stuff I might see others eating, actually isn't food at all. Majik I wish you love and luck, and Suvine is the best. I think...
-JayMoney.net
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Comment by svelte_in_la on March 30, 2009 at 5:18am - First thing you need to do is cut out soda and all those other crap drinks. Yes, even diet soda, and even those fruit juices claiming to be packed with vitamin whatever. You'd be surprised how many calories you cut out when you cut out beverage calories. Most importantly, all that soda and juice is doing is making you crave sugar and processed food. Drink only water. Then your wallet and your body will have more room for the produce aisle.
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Comment by Blackmajik Womban on March 30, 2009 at 2:26am
- will do Suvine!
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Comment by Blackmajik Womban on March 30, 2009 at 2:05am
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Yeah, see its a battle of my mindset as well. I dont know why I like to get all in Nazi mode when It comes to changing my eating lifestyle. I thought maybe cos I wanted to do something that I KNEW i would fail in doing so i would GET to binge eat...but I went into Nazi mode to quit smoking and it worked.Perhaps I do need a new approach when it comes to my lifestyle, afterall its like I said- this is one bully I've never felt confident I could beat (not long term anyway).
Actually you guys are right I'm going to shoot for eating raw first- and being consistant. Im on a super strict budget (unemployment benefits) so Im thinking just straight up veggies instead of recipies. Thats another thing, trying to find my raw balance- if I dont buy enuff I have to make even more trips to the store and will increase my chance of getting fast food or anyother junk foods due to hunger pangs. If I buy too much it will go bad before I eat it- veggies go bad sooo quick!
I guess I feel like If I dont start with anything drastic, I'm not really doing anything??? Also I guess I feel like fasting was to calm all my urges and addictions but it does make sense to tackle the eating first. *sigh
This is really hard for me, when you guys say to throw away the "food" I have its almost like hearing I should cut a limb off, this shyt is soooo tied to what I percive as treasure/pleasure...its what I cherish and "live" for- wow, that's xactly what it is, I HONOR AND WORSHIP this crap! its so ingrained in me. I need to change what I inherently belive about food and how I am to relate to it. How do I change my mentality?? its been in the making and making /maintaing me for more than 20 yrs. There are self preservation reasons that made me adopt this messed up way of eating- and yes I realise how that sentence is so wrong lol but its true.
Status update- I ate what I wanted of the ice cream and threw the rest away, I ate the fish, ate more Doritos trying to dog this soda yeah I guess I am a binge eater.- I get panicky and feel like I got to get the last little bit of "pleasure" that I can....thinking that when its gone that's it, I can close the book on it all and start my new life.
Im realizing my pattern now-
1.mindset/intent of strict restriction(i get my rocks off on thoughts/attempts of self deprivation, wth is that all about???)
2. indulge in junk/things on my prohibited list for the day with the promise of starting clean tommorow with said strict diet
3.tomrrow comes I do well for a while, then cave before midnite
4.buy/eat stuff I was craving then say when I run out of X and "get in the zone" I will start my lifestyle change
5.return to step 1
Guess I have more allegience to the cylce that I do of actually being a sucessful raw eater. Belive me folks I know how fkd my thinking seems...my body is a reflection of how i treat food, so I really apprechiate all the feedback you guys have given me cos its ALL counter- intuitve to me and left to my own devices, I will keep regenerating the same thoughts/actions so I need this intervention! :)
When I do actually do raw, Im a Nazi at it so I feel like even steaming a veggie- I have "messed up" maybe I need to loosen up on that. I do totally belive for me to be in my best health, I should stay away from grains (to include wheat) dairy, meat, fish, poultry, and the more starchy veggies like potatoes, corn, carrots.I have a sugar sensitivity and the fish will trip a desrie in me to want cooked meat. So within those restrictions maybe I can allow myself to steam veggies here and there...
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Comment by Ali on March 29, 2009 at 10:39pm
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Personally, i'd rather throw it out and feel guilty for that than keep it around and feel even worse for eating it. Trust me, your body will thank you. Not only that, but you'll be less likely to WANT it if its out of your house. It's the whole 'out of sight, out of mind thing'.
Take one day at a time, and know that with everyday you will feel better and better, as well as look better and better. You may have a long road before you but the ride and all the changes you will feel and see is beautiful :]
Good luck & enjoy yourself!
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Comment by svelte_in_la on March 29, 2009 at 9:29pm
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What helped me was learning how to make simple raw recipes. You know what's simple? Garnishes, sauces, soups, and puddings!!! We're talking EASY 1-2-3!! And, get ready, that's what makes the taste buds really pop! With this knowledge and squeezing raw foods into your SAD diet, you're on the right track. I think sometimes we get overwhelmed with being 100% faithful to raw, especially the newbies, that we throw in the towel and resort to crap eating.
For instance, my friend won't give up meat. Ok, fine. So, I had him do grilled organic chicken and make some raw nori rolls and a small salad to go with it. He LOVES munching on crackers on long commutes from work. He replaced that with the crunch of celery sticks sprinkled with Celtic Sea Salt.
And don't forget water. Dehydration makes you hungry.
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Comment by Bettina on March 29, 2009 at 6:56pm
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What kaybee said....awesome. Yea I definitely agree....why are you fasting anyway???? I'm trying to fast for one day a week, but if I don't feel like it I say to myself....that's okay....we will next week. Give your mind/body time to chill and adjust. Diving right in is great but why fast? I woulc recommend fasting after you've got a stable raw diet deal goin on. But again it's up to you. But that fasting sounds even toturous to me :S
I think if you're going to make such a big lifestyle change....you got to slowly or it won't last and you'll go back to your old habits. Stay focused and remember why you're changing your lifestyle...don't let your mind get in the way...just do it. To help you along the way watch inspiring movies, listen to awesome music, read books to educate yourself. One thing that's kept me raw is that I read up on what processed foods do to our bodies and they turn me right off. Hope this helps!!
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