Suddenly, it is so simple...

Hello, all,
I am elated. In the past two weeks, since I re-entered raw realm, and the realm of you all, this group, I had come to wonderful conclusions, like the dust has settled and suddenly I can see.
I have been working as a writer fro the business daily for the last 6 and a bit years. I have also had three beautiful children - boys aged 10 months, 3 years and 5 years - with my long-term love. It has been full-on six years, I tell you. The person who set on her own, listening to sweet Mozart, two hours before the year 2003 was about to come unfolding, saying last goodbyes to being just "me", is not the woman and the mother here, writing this.
I am going to tell my employer that I will be leaving in the middle of July. I will spend a month and half with my family, my beautiful men. And in September, I will either start the midwifery course, if I am accepted, or continue to learn about this beautiful life, and what a beautiful place it is to look after. It is so fresh, like a breath of air, to suddenly realise that the security is the state of mind, not a given situation. Gosh, what a high! It was alwas so impotant to me, and now the faith has ascended and the fear is waning.
The support is everything. If we can support each other, then this will become a living, breathing entity, like a huge umbrella over this beautiful, fragile world.
I thank you all for reminding me all this. This has been a great journey so far and I have a feeling this is just a start.
With much much love and gratitude, for reminding me about my dreams and making me see the possibilitiy of them coming true.
Namaste.
Katya