Rekindling my relationship with Raw

Hello All!

I am bringing raw food back into my life and I am SO excited!!!!!

Not to say my life has been completely exempt of raw. For the past month I've been eating around 60%, and for six weeks before that I was in India where the only raw food I ate was mangos, lychees, cucumbers, tomatoes and onions. When I first started my whole raw foods journey, I jumped straight into it at 100% (or with the intent of 100% when I still ate a few things here and there that I didn't realize weren't raw, like rice milk). I kept that up for six months, and then started to eat the occasional cooked vegan meal over the next couple months. So now it's approaching the time when I first learned about raw food a year ago. It's been a bit of a roller coaster, and I did honestly reach a point before where I got too stressed out about being strictly 100%. It felt too much like a project, and was draining my energy moreso than invigorating it.

Lately I've been feeling lower energy and less of a connection to nature. The trees just don't speak to me like they used to. I spoke with a friend the other night who I haven't seen in awhile and he mentioned wanting to try out raw vegan. I immediately perked up and started spewing out all the enthusiasm I had pent up inside of me for this lifestyle. Then I realized, "Wait a second, why am I not raw anymore?"

This morning I woke up to prepare sprouted bread spread over with avocado. I opened the bag and a whole half loaf had molded over in the matter of two days. I took this as a sign. I made myself a huge bowl of salad. I gave today to myself to peruse poetry at a bookstore and grocery shop at Whole Foods (something I love way too much for the amount of money in my bank account). I got the greenest raw organic juice that they could make me, and I could instantly feel all the good energy and chlorophyl replenishing my bloodstream. I could imagine it's what a shot of heroin would feel like to someone who hasn't used in awhile.

I roamed the produce section, wanting to brush my cheek up against the kale and rub my hands through the baby spinach. Yes, this might sound creepy, but I was in a state of complete ecstasy. My heart chakra was pouring open and slathering itself all over the heads of lettuce. I filled up a huge bag with goji berries - goji berries!!! I love them so - and can you imagine that I have not eaten one single goji berry in three months?

It's time for a new start. This time, it's not a project, it's just a nod of acknowledgment to my body that it wants and needs this fuel. This is the food that works best with the frequency of my mindset - that is most conducive to my loving. No regrets for taking a break - I just realize even more strongly now that this is right for me :)

Love to all,
Erin