Day 6 - Ultimate Cleanse

I AM SO BORED. Oh glory glory glory, I am one bored cleanser. My relaxing day five spilled over into today and I'm going a little stir-crazy without food. It's really bringing up my bad habits. For example, when I feel lazy I really have to fight it straight away, get outside, get productive, get active, or I find myself sucked into the internet for an entire day. I also get tempted to make entire meal plans for the weeks to come, to search for "raw christmas pie recipe" (what does that even mean?!) and visualise the first plate of salad I'm going to devour (oh it will be so beautiful!). Then I get depressed. Then I feel like I've failed. Then I get fear to go on. That's what happened today.

I did nothing but drink lemonade and sit on the internet.

Yes, I learnt some amazing facts about raw food, fasting, Buddhism, "raw christmas pies", and - well, who can really remember??

But was it a day spent as I had planned to spend this fast? In contemplation, in fighting my fears, in reaching beyond my emotional barriers and becoming healthy? No... But I did decide what is going in my "raw christmas pie".

It's only in jest that I'm beating myself up about it. Tomorrow is a new day, my friends :)

Master Cleanse
This has been my main focus today, because it is easy to blame the BORING mix of lemon, maple syrup and cayenne for my BOREDOM. I'm feeling light, energy is fine but motivation is at an all-time low. My objectivity remains in tact and I can see that this laziness is an emotional and mental detox symptom rather than a physical one. It's something I've been needing to deal with for a lifetime. Tomorrow!!

Poop Report
Last night, I only drank half of my (yet again) over-brewed Senna and did not receive the regular midnight call from my bottom wanting to visit its friend the toilet.
The salt water flush was REALLY hard to drink this morning and results were only moderate flushing, so I think I'll up the Senna slightly. What a delicate balance. Still eliminating some solids - I don't know if this is a good thing or not.



Dear mango waiting for me,

I AM SO READY FOR YOU.

Love,

- Tegan