i set my goal so high. then i fail them. then i feel bad. then i wanna move away(physically or mentally). then i start over again. then the loop repeats. my paretns did this too. now that i see this all, i want to change, i want to stay committed, one day i like to be completely raw, but for now, it is way way too hard, especially where i live, although vancouver bc in an extremely health conscious city, still compared to a pure gorilla like raw food diet, it is hard to resist social temptations of tea and sweets, or soups in cold winter times, and all those great foods that feed my psyche. so would it be wrong to move away to a hot place and start up my dreamed commune? my elevated goal of all times. a place where we change with the sun, moon, sessons and fruits? i think i can give it a year or so, a place to join and be, warm, raw and loving grounds to play, and then perhaps come back and light up other cities with a collective passionate fire! rawwise: i am doing my best but these cravings call me and i don't want to stress about them, i wanna flow, but to be raw i know there is a point when one must surrender and disipline, i want it to happen naturally as i spiritually evolve, i think i'm just not ready yet, i never enjoyed forcing my soul, i will take sit for raw to conquer me, and i will be open. luvz to all who love make do.
Tags:
Share
You need to be a member of Give it to me Raw to add comments!
Join this social network