Saturday 9/20/08
I have been trying to start this blog since getting home from Raw Spirit, but I've been feeling so many intense feelings from the experience all I can say in this moment is the trip ain't over yet. Oh, I've been busy going through my photos and staying online posting to GITMR at a feverish pace. I've changed my profile picture 4 times. I didn't stretch out to sleep Wednesday or Thursday nights, I just dozed off with the computer going on the bed table. Friday night I finally put the computer to sleep and had a full night's deep and restful sleep. I have not even finished unpacking the car.
The weather here was chilly and overcast when I got home. It rained yesterday and finally cleared off late today. It was just perfect for staying inside and being still.
I felt myself trying to go unconscious around food and just stop eating. Knowing what that will get me has motivated me to make sure I am getting my base amount of calories. The only food I'm excited about right now are the new Keitt Mangoes that are almost ready to eat.
The "War" that is being fought on GITMR over Doug versus David at Raw Spirit was very painful to me and I had to disengage. Almost everyone wanted to be right rather than happy. I include those who stayed with it desperately trying to bring peace between the factions; bless them for trying.
To try to summarize in detail my experience of my trip to Sedona and the return trip home would stop the process right now. I can say that I'm feeling a heart opening and a grieving process for things in my past I have held onto until now when the gates burst open and those old feelings began to fall away in tears and laughter. Gotta clean house to make room for what comes next.
Kathy Zavada played at Raw Spirit, but I did not get to hear her do my favorite song of hers:
Rejoice, Dance and Sing
Celebrate Everything.
Glory Halelujah there Is None But ONE
Glory Halelujah It's Brighter Than The Sun!
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