JUST WANT TO NAME THE FOODS I HAVE LEFT TO EAT BEFORE GOING ON MY FAST (SPIRULINNA+WHEAT GRASS JUICE). IT'S SILLY, BUT EVERY TIME I SAY THIS IS IT ( STARTING RAW OR FASTING) I WILL GIVE MY SISTER SOME OF THE FOODS I HAVE IN THE KITCHEN, THEN WHEN I FAIL I'M LIKE DARN I GAVE SO-AND- SO AWAY!! LOL SO THIS TIME I AM KIND OF TORN, SOME THINGS MY SISTER WON'T TAKE BECAUSE SHE IS CHANGING HER DIET AS WELL, MY ONLY OPTION WOULD BE TO THROW IT AWAY AND I FEEL GUILTY AS HECK THROWING FOOD AWAY- NO MATTER HOW NON-NUTRITIOUS IT IS...I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO WITH THESE ITEMS YET, THIS SITE HAS REALLY GOT ME AMPED TO GET STARTED. MAYBE I'LL JUST KEEP THEM IN THE FRIDGE AS DECORATION???
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I HAVE THE FOLLOWING LEFT:
1 PACK OF HADDOCK
1 1/2 BAG OF DORITOS
2 2-LITERS OF DIET DR.PEPPER
2 SLICES OF TURKEY BOLOGNA
2 PACKS OF AMERICAN CHEESE
1 SLEEVE OF WHITE BREAD
6 ICE CREAM BARS
AND JUST AS A NOTE TO SELF: I PRETTY MUCH FEEL UN ENERGETIC. LIKE IM WASTING TIME SPENDING YET ANOTHER DAY IN UNHEALTHY BODY "HELL" , BLOATED AND LAZY, ANXIOUS, UNAFFECTED, AND UGLY. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS RAW, I SLEPT DEEPLY WITH MINIMAL HOURS, I WAS NOT AT ALL GROGGY WHEN I WOKE UP, I FELT INSPIRED, LIKE I WAS ACCOMPLISHING RATHER THAN THINKING ABOUT IT AND PLANNING IT. I FELT LIKE SHARING AND LETTING PEOPLE IN, I FELT THE DESIRE TO REACH OUT, I WAS HAPPY WATCHING THE LBS MELT AWAY, I FELT DISCIPLINED AND FREE, AND I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT FOOD AS MUCH AS I DO ON COOKED/JUNK.
THE LAST TIME I WAS SUCCESSFUL AT FASTING, I MADE IT 9 DAYS AND I FELT SO DURN ENERGETIC TOWARD THE END, THIS HOUSE WAS SPOTLESS!!! I WAS ALSO MORE SENSITIVE TO EMOTION- IT FELT MORE LIKE AN ENTITY THAN A FEELING.
I DON'T LOOK FORWARD TO THE BURNING PANGS IN MY STOMACH, THE DETOX HEAD ACHE, FEELING DISGRUNTLED, FIGHTING URGES, THINKING ABOUT FOOD EVERY OTHER SECOND, THE FEELING OF WAITING FOREVER TO MARK OFF "DAY 1"AND THINKING IF I CAN JUST MAKE IT TO DAY 4 + , FEELING OUT -OF- SORTS ...
YET I HAVE TO ENDURE IT THE REWARDS ARE GREAT ONCE YOU PROVE YOU REALLY WANT THEM.I MUST REMEMBER ENDURANCE IS THE KEY! THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I CAN DO IF I ONLY HAD TO MAINTAIN IT FOR ONE DAY, BUT THIS ISN'T A ONE DAY FIX. ITS DAY ONE +1,+1,+1...... AD INFINITUM. IT HELPS ME TO THINK THAT THIS BATTLE ISN'T LIMITED TO FOOD, IT'S MY SOUL'S BATTLE- A FIGHT FOR TRUE DISCIPLINE, FREEDOM, EVOLUTION, DECLARATION, A SHOW OF STRENGTH, AN ABILITY TO TRUST,..
TALK IS CHEAP
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