Jumping back on the RAW train again....

So I've been eating SAD again. For quite a while now. I've left my healthy lifestyle arghhhh ...let me think.... a year ago now. The result?
-no energy - I even stopped exercising.
-weight gain
-returning to bad habbits - smoking, drinking, drug abuse
-depression
-anxiety & panic attacks - compeletely unknown thing to my life - I never understood why and how can people suffer from panick attacks or anxiety - untill I have found myself in a state that brought me to a doctor, who had to tell me (and gave me pills!) - to treat anxiety to avoid more panick attacks.....
-sleeping dissorder
-bad relationship with my body, which used to be my temple....
-...

the list seems to go on and on.... I feel unwell, unhappy, ugly and unloved. Maybe there is no reason to write this down so publically, but I feel like I need some support. So I'm returning back to this very positive site, to find some lost motivation. I just read another book about going raw and starting raw - and it triggered my thinking - into starting right now. It's 1.40 in the morning here where I'm at the moment, and I feel like I need to start right now. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and my heatlhy new start. I can't wait to feel what I used to feel like before. I know I can do this again.
I'm not going to use the next upcoming birthday party as an excuse to postpone this decision again, as I did before. I am starting now. I'm not going to lie to myself anymore about my welbeing and happynes, I'm starting now!

...... and reading what I just wrote, maybe I should read THE POWER OF NOW again :)

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Comment by plethorax on November 10, 2009 at 10:50am: I am totally in this same predicament right now, although I'm in the middle of a 2-week juice feast - my attempt to jump-start eating raw again. Quitting coffee (for the umpteenth time) is going to be the hard part for me.

Good luck, you deserve the best health!!

Comment by Luciananas on November 10, 2009 at 4:22am: I'm so glad to have your support :) You're wonderful!
Gypsi, yes my problem started when I went travelling, too. I started eating more and more sad stuff up untill the point where I would eat potato chips without a wink.
And Bettina, you're so right about forgiving yourself. I think I did last night, when I read so much about raw vegan lifestyle that it made me change my attitude towards myself. I regret that I have fallen back to the SAD, but I have forgiven myself and now it's time to undo all the damage. Good luck to us all :)
I'm gonna have grapes from the garden for breakfast :) yum

Comment by AJ on November 9, 2009 at 11:14pm: I'm in the same boat!! I've been feeling so crappy- and am so excited to go back raw.
I hope your transition goes well; im finding it harder than I remember it being! haha
good luck to both of us!
keep updating us on how things are going :)
xx

Comment by Bettina on November 9, 2009 at 10:36pm: So after a longggg (or what felt like long) few months of SAD I decided to jump back on raw again as well, feeling the same crappy stuff you listed above.
But I guess the issue I have to deal with most (and maybe others do to) is forgiving myself and releasing the guilt. Its extremely hard but must be done :)
All my love, support girl

Comment by Gypsi on November 9, 2009 at 8:55pm: You TOTALLY have my support!!!!!!!!
I was raw until I started traveling again, and have bounced around with vegan and vegetarian foods....I feel really crappy and have been going through some of the same things. I went through the fridge, through everything out, and made a trip to whole foods today. So yay, congratulations on this choice, and what would it take for us to make this a joyful, happpy abundant journey for our bodies, minds and souls. :)
xxxluv n hugs,

Gypsi