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I AM SO BORED. Oh glory glory glory, I am one bored cleanser. My relaxing day five spilled over into today and I'm going a little stir-crazy without food. It's really bringing up my bad habits. For example, when I feel lazy I really have to fight it straight away, get outside, get productive, get active, or I find myself sucked into the internet for an entire day. I also get tempted to make entire meal plans for the weeks to come, to search for "raw christmas pie recipe" (what does that e… Continue

What a cruisey day. Certainly not energy-filled or productive, but quite relaxing. There were actors in the house recording ADR, which is always fun energy to be around. It did mean I had to be a quiet mouse so spent most of the day on the laptop, watching the summer solstice brutalize the trees outside with wind.

I'm finding it hard to manage six glasses of lemonade, most of the time preferring water. The salt water flush was easier to drink this morning and I'm not having any detox symptoms.… Continue

Cravings and Memories
I just had a break-through. I decided to take the craving-busting advice I was giving to my boy: "Sit down and write." So I sat and wrote. "My Relationship with Food", I titled the piece, then began listing ALL of my memories of food. I started from my first memory and went from there, writing what I'd eaten, who with, and - most importantly - how I felt at the time. I noted which foods I craved when I remembered and which I couldn't care less about.

Half way throu… Continue

Day Three.
or: Kill Me Now.

What a shitstorm*. First, I let my senna leaf tea brew for too long last night and woke up at crazy o'clock with stomach cramps. Hello toilet. Sitting there, barefoot on cold tiles, my sleepy mind posed one question: "Isn't two days enough?" That really set the mood for the entire day.
* this does not refer to my poop report.

I went back to bed, still crampy but considerably lighter, and dreamt of an ex-boyfriend who caused me considerable grief while we were togeth… Continue

Day two, pretty easy! I had an emotional blow-out at about nine o'clock at night, but it was not as bad as they've often been when I'm not detoxing. Almost like I didn't have the energy to carry on :p

I began the enormous task of cleaning the yoga room. The room itself, not so bad. The fact that it contains gigantic built in robes that we use for all our clothing... scary. The wardrobes only contain an above-head-height shelf and two small hanging racks. Our system of "everything in neat piles… Continue