I was just reading that Steve Pavlina is divorcing his wife Erin. Normally, I wouldn't care so much but he wrote this in his blog:
It’s fair to say that polyamory was a catalyst for ending our marriage, but only partly. Another catalyst behind that one was my decision to get into raw foods. That’s partly what spawned this exploration of intimacy in the first place. Eating raw is an emotional amplifier. I had to learn to start processing the emotions I was feeling because they couldn’t be so easily dismissed.
So I was just wondering if anyone else out there is going through the same thing, or even thinking about it.
I have lived this..4 years into eating 100% raw,i left my husband..im not even sure i should be sharing this,but here goes!
I got solely focussed on the raw way of living,i started to shun my husband because he wasnt 'all raw'~and i felt i deserved better..
He and i,have been through so much together,we have always been two hearts connected,true soul mates(the much over used word,but accurate in this case)...So i pushed and i pushed,and finely i pushed him right away,and then turned and said,see you dont love me enough(??)and left him,went dancing off with some other raw people,which was a learning curve in itself...and when i finally got a chance to stop,to heal my mind,and have peace and quiet,i looked inside me,to see my broken heart...away from the love of my life..and i nearly died inside,in fact i think i died a little ...
As i stood alone,on the edge of a cliff,contemplating stepping off this planet,i felt a force behind me,pull me back..(little did i know at this exact same moment,my husband held a gun in his hand and was thinking of doing the same thing...) i have tears as i write this now,so many memories...ahh.we have been blessed enough to find each other again.we have both learned so much.
For me,i see his beauty his heart his wonderful kind and loving soul,and i wouldnt change him for the world ~sure it would be great if he ate all raw vegan,but he doesnt..so that is that!
Back together for 2 years now :)
Danny for me a raw way of living is much more than just raw foods~i got swept up in only wanting to associate with people who eat raw foods,and i cut everything down in my life to the bare minimum,i wouldnt even go out and socialise..i became very reclusive and in some ways i had a break down .
yup exactly...i compromise to a certain degree,i over compromised when i came back ,over compensating for the feelings of guilt and all,and nearly lost myself in the process...i think i have the balance right now lol ;)
Permalink Reply by Mica on October 26, 2009 at 7:37pm
Oh my god, Neet that's an amazing thing you both have there. I'm sooo glad to hear it went the way it did. You two seem so perfect together when I see your pictures, but it's always hard to really get the whole story just from images like that.
Wishing you both nothing but the best in life.....and a loooong and healthy one - together ;) xx
Permalink Reply by Uti on October 26, 2009 at 9:14pm
Damn, RGG, your story made me cry and my heart sing. You're so blessed to have felt the pain of attachment and judgment and to have come through the experience seeing how it blocks the Love in our hearts.
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