ok all. if you know me, you know i've suffered from anxiety for a few years now. came off medication a few months ago and have been great up until a few weeks ago. i promised myself i'd never resort back to meds again ...but i'm questioning whether that approach is smart or not. the only reason i am questioning it is because i fear that my anxiety is causing more health problems this time and if i don't get it under control, it could lead to some serious problems. basically what i've noticed is an extreme sensitivity to my heart beat. my anxiety never used to feel this way, so of course a different feeling makes me nervous. but what i notice is that i'm always paying attention to my heart...and i've noticed my pulse rate at rest is never lower than 76bpm and can get up to 96bpm. i notice my throat sometimes gets tight, my face feels weird, tingling in my arm and legs...i've also noticed some heart flutters...which if you've ever had, are AWFULLY scary. for a few seconds i can feel my heart in my throat and i gasp for air, feeling like my heart is just going to lose control and BAM...heart attack. i've done some research and have read that these symptoms at a young age (i'm 25) are mostly common in people with anxiety and a lot of people suffer from this. my fear is that one day my heart not be able to regain its normal beat. ugh..scary! i've been to my doctor a few times about feeling uneasy and since he's aware of my anxiety issue, blames it directly on that. i can never get fully checked out because no one takes me seriously...i'm just the crazy girl with an anxiety problem!
so really i'm struggling here. if i go on meds, i know they will work and they will ease my anxiety which SHOULD stop the heart palps. i fear that the more i try to treat this on my own, the more damage i am doing to my heart in the long run by constantly having a high pulse rate and heart palps that scare the crap out of me! but if i go on the meds...WHAT ON EARTH is this pill that i take every day doing to me that i'm not aware of?
trust me, i am ANTI meds...
i'm all for exercise (but lately my heart issue has been almost paralyzing me from doing anything strenuous)
i'm all for meditation and stress relieving activities
i'm all for NO ALCOHOL
i'm all for RAW FOODS
i'm all for seeing a therapist and diving in to some CBT
but i'm lost here...
HELP!!!
thank you!
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