This is absolutely the first time that I've disobeyed my doctor, and I'm scared out of my effing mind. Seriously.
I'm 18 weeks pregnant.
I did try dairy and meat when I first found out I was pregnant. Cheese was the most difficult thing for me to give up; oddly, cheese/dairy was the most disgusting thing to try again. I'm back to the vegan lifestyle, watching my vitamin and mineral levels, and attempting to get sunshine (even on days when Connecticut seems more like Forks). I've kept it mostly quiet from my family and doctor because, while I appreciate their concern, I've made an informed choice that I do not need to be convinced is wrong.
I knew my doctor was going to bring up the flu shot at my next appointment, so I prepared myself with all the million reasons why I wasn't going to get the flu/h1n1 vaccination. I girded myself with literature, reinforced myself with practical knowledge, and marched into his office. He gave me his normal, always kind lecture and I politely nodded my head and left my appointment.
I eat my fruits and veggies and get my sunshine. I exercise. I don't eat fully raw, as I am overweight and was really struggling to get the necessary calories to support my weight and the baby. I'm just scared.
What if I get it? What then? I'm anxious to be that hippie asshole that puts her child in danger because of some ideology. Except, I know that it's just not a 'religion'; I know there are legitimate reasons not to get a flu shot. I know that I can be healthy and sanitary. I know I am on a better foot than most around me, thanks to the vegan lifestyle.
Are there any other people that were instructed to get the vaccination and refused? Mothers with children? Those with unborn children? Why did you come to that decision? How do you rid yourself of the guilt of making decisions for your unborn and born children?
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